that boy.

i've been organizing my blog. 

i've read every blog from the first time i wrote from new york on january 11, 2008

up until january 31, 2009 when chase had six months left.

it was a landmark and a break through. 

it was a blog about how much i loved chase. 

at the time i didn't realize it, but i think thats when i was getting over it.

i remember praying about what i should do about that one.

i wanted to ask if i should write him off.

before i even knelt down i just felt sick to my stomach.

i knew i should. i didn't want to. i didn't.

four days after writing that blog, i got a call.

yes, my blog said that i was settling with myself and school and wasn't dating.

well, that was fine.

because when i answered, it was jon. jonathan from second grade, jonathan from recess, jonathan with a mullet, jon from jr high who'd moved back from texas looking grown up with a hair cut, jon from seminary,  jon. who i saw and talked to, knew who he was dating but never really heard about. jon who i always had a crush on. 

he called me. he called me and said he was driving by my house and wanted to see if i wanted to go to dinner. 

i remember looking at my piles of homework. thinking about how i'd set this night aside to finish it. 

i said yes.

we went to noodles and company. 

he had sent off a missionary too, we were both taken. 

dinner turned into a drive down to provo, just him and i. 

we had a blast. we met up with my roommates at some gymnastics place. 

that night he hugged me. for a long time. 

from then on, we were inseparable. 

three months later, we turned into more than "just friends".

three months after that, chase and jon both came home. 

three months later i was engaged.

6 months later married. 

and i couldn't be happier. 

here is our first few weeks of marriage.

i LOVE that boy.