the golden state.

well my time in california came to a close on sunday. i miss it already. but i am happy to be home.




things i will miss:
-amanda talking to me every morning at 7 am WITHOUT fail. when I am not responding, its probably a good idea to let me sleep.
-my sassy/mean manager.

"That girl was mean to me."
"Do you think its because she saw your hair?"

-going to the beach every day off with Kylie.
-yogurtland literally every other day.
-cutie Gabes. she understands my need/want to dance, my struggle with children, and hate for 80's attire and 80's dancing.
-seeing amanda DIGGING through our freaking huge pile of clothes. i get such a smile on my face when i picture that. she does not laugh.
-running along the coast with the nice breeze.
-annex.
-discussing my boy drama with danielle, and listening to hers.

things i will not miss:
-literally living paycheck to paycheck.
-living out of my suitcase.
-hearing "HI" all day. every day. from the little neighbor girl.

words/things that describe this summer:
"downy wrinkle releaser", southern bells of lou-i-vull, fixies..., twitpic, beachwalk, ohhh my goodness, leather couches, USMC anything (ha..), pitted, ----babes. beach babes, lazy babes, anything babes.

joshrad.

looks like the rains' pourin down on me, it's drownin' me now.
all i want, is to come back home.
this old corduroy coat, its not keepin me dry, but i...

i can't think of what else to try.

i know its annoying when people post lyrics, but i can't get this off my mind.
i can't post the rest of the song because its too sad.

summer09

i have failed as a bloggr lately and i am sorry.

i have lots of pics to make up for it.
this is what i've been up to:

lots and lots of bike riding.
these are all of our bikes locked up by the pier. one bike lock
photo by: the talented Kylie Nixon

i took a little drive...

this was my first time holding this little doll baby!
my little niece, Audrey Grace.

i got to catch up with these two. "GIRL.......??" talk.

for real, girl talk. we made waffle brownies. very strange. but oh so good when smothered with hershey's chocolate syrup. try it.

most importantly, i got to spend time with this little guy on my quick getaway to utah.
he is the cutest little boy. i love him so much.

Jill came to visit! such a fun weekend spent with her.

we've looked at sunsets from the balcony.

this is quite the typical picture.
nephi does something really really sick and not funny for long enough until it actually is funny.
happy birthday nephi.

we've been to a themed party or two. this was a 'man' party. i didnt really get why that was the theme but it was funny. amanda is in nephi's clothes. and shauna made those mustaches. and that is real booze. yumm. photo taken by: mike c...i think.
we went to the OC fair. we saw lots of animals and watched a HILARIOUS hypnotist.

i made friends! we are all from utah and we all graduated in '06! they are so cute and so fun.

i even tried out for baywatch. thank you kylie, you're such a good photographer. you even captured danielle on my head.

and now i'm freaking out for these next few weeks!
in a bad way. not a good way.

one year ago.

once upon a time, there was a boy named adam.

adam was a football star, funny, and really cute.

he lived on staten island.
adam and i dated.
we had a lot of fun together.

we ate lots and lots of yolato.

we played in the rain and in the columbus circle pond at midnight.

we went to ghetto rockaway beach.

went to the bronx zoo, and did many other fun things.

when i was deciding to move home, i was really really sad.
i wasnt sure of the real reason why i had to go back to utah, i just knew i needed to.
adam was the one who always comforted me.
he continued to remind me not to regret moving home once i did.
that when i got home, i'd probably question why i went home. 
but i had to remember that it was the right thing.

well for a year now, i've wondered why i moved home.
i miss new york every day.
there are lots of reasons. the simple ones,
new york is a really really hard place to live.
its a tough city.
it is expensive.
i was really young.

but yesterday at church, i realized the most important reason why i moved home.
it is because of adam.

and i am so grateful i went back to utah.
thank you, adam, for the advice.
i bet you didn't know that it would be advice against yourself.

regina spektor.

It's like forgetting the words to your favorite song.
You can't believe it; you were always singing along.
It was so easy and the words so sweet.
You can't remember; you try to move your feet.
It was so easy and the words so sweet.

You can't remember; you try to feel the beat...

God Bless America

I've always known that I'm proud to be an American, but yesterday I realized HOW much. Seeing the flag, hearing people sing along to the national anthem, and seeing people stand up and clap when the Veterans drove by almost made me cry.
I am so grateful for the people that join the Military. They are way more brave than I can even comprehend, and they are the ones that keep normal life possible for us every day. Freedom isn't free.
And for that I say, thank you.
Semper Fidelis.