first trimester, baby #2!!!

I am officially out of my first trimester and feeling great! i was fully prepared to be exhausted and sick, sick, sick. luckily, this was not the case. when I found out i was pregnant, i could have tricked myself into thinking i wasn't. it was so different from the first pregnancy, i didn't feel pregnant at all. as i got to week 6, i kept remembering back to how sick i was at this point before....week 7, week 8 and I still wasn't sick. i remember telling amanda and lyndsi that i believed at this point it was mind over matter and if i truly believed i wouldn't get sick, that i wouldn't. (HA) i kept putting off being sick and i never became plagued with sickness like i was before and i can't say how grateful i am for that. there were a handful of days that i felt crummy, but mostly when I was in utah with a lot of help with prim. i also think that taking care of primmy took my mind off of tiredness or sickness i may have been feeling if i was able to mope around and feel bad for myself. i've been reading about other women with 'short interval' pregnancies and they all talked about how tired they are/were. you guys. when i had my kidney issues, i was. so. tired. i couldn't get out of bed and couldn't hold prim because it made my arms too tired. i guess i'm seeing now how those events could be blessings in disguise. i am nowhere near as tired now as i was then. 

 this is when we found out. i was at ashton's house and we were talking about how i wanted to get pregnant again. i was a few days late, but didn't say anything. on the way home i stopped at the grocery store and bought a pregnancy test. cassidy happened to be there, so again, she was one of the first people to know (sort of know)! she is the checker so when she scanned the test she looked at me and said "seriously?" then got so excited and hugged me and prim even though there was a line. i went home and took it and it was positive. this is right when we got back from california, so i text jon and asked him to come home from school. he didn't think anything of it because after being together for the whole weekend, he just thought we missed him. i put the test on the bathroom counter and told him to go look at it. he turned around with tears in his eyes and hugged me and prim! we were both in blissful shock.

right when i saw the positive, i ran to prim and told her "mommy's having a baby!" she smiled SO big and starting kicking her legs. later, when i told jon, we asked her if she knew who the baby was and she smiled again and got excited.

 bold to be posting this, eh? this is between 5-6 weeks pregnant. nobody knew. i took this picture to send to amanda showing her how the swimsuit she gave me fits (we're like that). not flattering but pretty much me post baby and pre baby :)!

 at exactly 8 weeks, we went to our first doctors appointment. i had text my ob to tell her the good news, so she was expecting us. as she was doing the sonogram she said "aw, i was hoping it was twins". who would wish that juju on us at this point in life?! the baby looked great and seeing that little heartbeat was really touching.

 celebrating after the appointment at cheesecake.

we told my family and jon's family at about 7/8 weeks and then told everyone else around 9.

here i am at ten weeks.

 11 weeks up at the cemetery.

and 13 weeks!
it took me a few days to get over the anxiety and guilt about having another baby. i got melancholy about taking time away from prim, but i had to keep reminding myself that we wanted this like crazy. we aren't taking anything away from her, but giving her a little sibling that can hopefully be her best friend! we love being parents and love little prim so immensely that we knew pretty darn soon we wanted another one. we have so much love to give these two babies. we keep thinking that this may be our last one, so i'm soaking up this pregnancy just in case!! i am looking forward to the second trimester, hoping to have a little more energy and starting to see a cute little bump (before i get huge). here we go...

Dallas + february

around january/february prim started to get fussy around 6pm until she went to bed. she would cry if anyone but me would hold her. my theory is that from birth until then so many people had held her for me that she just wanted to be with her mommy. at either her 2 or 4 month appointment we talked to her doctor about it and she recommended we start putting her to bed earlier because maybe that's all she wanted. we started putting her down at 8 instead of 9 and it really did help!

we went to dallas the first week of february to visit john and kat before they moved to arizona for the summer.

 this is a no judgement zone everybody. prim loves to fall asleep like this. she will fuss and fuss until we put a blanket over her face and she'll go right to sleep.

aw two bald babies. while kat stayed home and watched the babe, the three of us went to hot yoga. it was so hard....and hot :)

 stephanie and thad had a ball to attend so they stayed in a hotel and we (kat mostly) watched their kids. steph kept her eyes peeled for a bloom highchair for sale and found us one! much to our delight, she gifted it to us!!!!!! she is so sweet.

 i can't remember why i took this photo, i think it was chuy's? whatever it was, it was yummy. steph and thad live in downtown dallas so they're in walking distance to everything.

 we were up there over Super Bowl weekend. we had been inside all day and i finally talked them into going geocaching for fresh air! jon, thad and i with primmy went along this little walkway to find some caches which we actually never found. it was lined with bamboo! it was so cool, we could hear it growing.......

 i rarely ever offer to people "do you want to hold the baby", usually because i don't think about it and i guess i figure they'll ask if they want to. thad asked to hold her so many times on sunday and was sooo cute with her. she was still in her fussy state but she was really happy with him. i love when men love babies.
the weekend as a whole was tons of fun! we love spending time with john and kat and our recent reuniting with stephanie+thad+babies has been awesome.

 

 this is prim's new thing. yowtch!!!

 doesn't this look like a professional photo? i worked with cassidy at pure posh and she was actually the first friend i told that we were expecting. she totally guessed it "you're eating AGAIN?? why are you so hungry..???" prim loves miss keke!

 life on the farm. john and kathy killing our roosters for sunday lunch.

 prim and i went to a baby shower for THREE pure posh ladies. she was so fussy most of the night but loved miss andrea so much (can't you tell? haha)

 such a cuddly little baby. she would fall asleep on me like this almost every night.

 little neck!!!!!!!

i took this photo for my sisters and when i looked at it, it was clear she had a receding hairline and a bob.

 we walked along the river walk and found these beautiful art pieces! who knew!

 our neighbors cowwies had three babies!!!!! she invited me over the night one was born so i could just take it in, and i did. i really did.

 

 we promote independence and fresh air. ;)

 our valentines day baby in the shirt from papa! we went out to dinner and took the babe and each took turns standing and holding her while the other ate. true romance.

so much mail!!!!

 this sick thing always finds the worst places to lay, poor neglected kitty.

 this is the first time i wore her facing out and i think she dug it. look at her little ears. the weather was starting to get nice, so we were spending more and more time outside.

 my favorite jammies.

 we took primrose to the san antonio rodeo in her little cowgirl outfit from mike and kim! people couldn't help but stare at her with those headphones on, haha. the vibrating of the speakers put her right to sleep and she slept through most of it.

 this is the only time she liked this swing. waste of money.

 our pretty water baby.

and the piece de resistance of the month, her passport came in the mail! i can't!! she is such a doll.
we have no international travel plans yet, but my passport was expiring so jon and i both got new ones and we got the baby one just. in. case.