my life.

i love every single one of these people.

bob marley.

"You may not be her first, her last, or her only. She loved before she may love again. But if she loves you now, what else matters? She’s not perfect - you aren’t either, and the two of you may never be perfect together but if she can make you laugh, cause you to think twice, and admit to being human and making mistakes, hold onto her and give her the most you can. She may not be thinking about you every second of the day, but she will give you a part of her that she knows you can break - her heart. So don’t hurt her, don’t change her, don’t analyze and don’t expect more than she can give. Smile when she makes you happy, let her know when she makes you mad, and miss her when she’s not there."

august '09. a bit different than i expected...

well. a lot has happened since i last updated. 

i'll skip the insanity

and post pictures of the end of california/first few weeks back in utah. 

you can figure it out for yourself. 

first of all, this girl came to visit me. finally! she came for jon's graduation...and for moral support for me. 

and for girl time of course.

this is jon at graduation. he went to boot camp for 13 weeks. the only contact we had was through letters. 

Marine Corps boot camp is as bad as you've probably heard. most likely worse. but after three months, he finally became a United States Marine!!

The guy on the left is one of his drill instructors....scary. 

i'd seen jon the day before graduation for family day. they were super strict with PDA and all that. this is the first real hug i got in welcoming him home! after three long long months. once he got released, we got to take him home. no more boot camp! and time to nurse him back to life! so sad... 

bf1, gf1, and gf2. i'm so glad this girl was there.

we went straight to the beach after graduation. (well...kind of straight. we made sure to play dress up in jon's uniforms first.)

what tanline?

after boot camp, jon got 10 days of leave. meaning he got to do whatever he wanted.

what did he do? 

ate AT LEAST a half a pan of brownies every night, fell asleep any/everywhere (he'd seriously start twitching two seconds after sitting down. laying on the cement by the pool, in the movie theater, on the tour bus at the zoo...) and spent lots of time with meee. 

then he got permission to get 7 days of Recruiter's Assistance, so he stayed an extra week! and worked 10-5.  

ah finally reunited! and it felt so good.

so after a fun 17 days, we had to say goodbye again. 

he went back to california on august 18th for marine combat training. he'll be there for four weeks.

he took his phone and gets every saturday and sunday off ! so we can talk all day on those days! and he isnt supposed to, but definitely sneaks texts to me every night. it is sooo much better than boot camp.

we even ichatted today! 

you know his Marine friends LOVED watching him take this picture.  

in two weeks i am going to san diego to see him!  i'm flying in on saturday, and he gets all saturday and sunday off for his overnight liberty! since he's such a good mormon, he has lots of friends and hook ups at the church. some of his older friends, Steve and Judy Vigil, are letting us borrow their car! we are so thankful, because otherwise we'd be stuck on base...fun. he has to report back on sunday night. then monday i think i'll just be on my own? i dont really know what he'll be doing but i dont think he'll have any liberty/free time to see me. then tuesday is MCT graduation. after that we'll both go to the airport. i'll be flying home, and he'll be flying to north carolina for MOS school for 16 weeks.

so its been a crazy few months. he's already been gone longer than he's been home in the months that we've dated. but it is so fun. everyday is such an adventure.

FAITH

"It isn't as bad as you somethings think it is.

It all works out.

Don't worry.

I say that to myself every morning.

It all works out in the end.

Put your trust in God, and move forward with faith and confidence in the future. The Lord will not forsake us.

He will not forsake us.

If we put our trust in Him, if we will pray to Him, if we will live worthy if His blessings,

He will hear our prayers."

-Gordon B. Hinckley

the golden state.

well my time in california came to a close on sunday. i miss it already. but i am happy to be home.




things i will miss:
-amanda talking to me every morning at 7 am WITHOUT fail. when I am not responding, its probably a good idea to let me sleep.
-my sassy/mean manager.

"That girl was mean to me."
"Do you think its because she saw your hair?"

-going to the beach every day off with Kylie.
-yogurtland literally every other day.
-cutie Gabes. she understands my need/want to dance, my struggle with children, and hate for 80's attire and 80's dancing.
-seeing amanda DIGGING through our freaking huge pile of clothes. i get such a smile on my face when i picture that. she does not laugh.
-running along the coast with the nice breeze.
-annex.
-discussing my boy drama with danielle, and listening to hers.

things i will not miss:
-literally living paycheck to paycheck.
-living out of my suitcase.
-hearing "HI" all day. every day. from the little neighbor girl.

words/things that describe this summer:
"downy wrinkle releaser", southern bells of lou-i-vull, fixies..., twitpic, beachwalk, ohhh my goodness, leather couches, USMC anything (ha..), pitted, ----babes. beach babes, lazy babes, anything babes.

joshrad.

looks like the rains' pourin down on me, it's drownin' me now.
all i want, is to come back home.
this old corduroy coat, its not keepin me dry, but i...

i can't think of what else to try.

i know its annoying when people post lyrics, but i can't get this off my mind.
i can't post the rest of the song because its too sad.

summer09

i have failed as a bloggr lately and i am sorry.

i have lots of pics to make up for it.
this is what i've been up to:

lots and lots of bike riding.
these are all of our bikes locked up by the pier. one bike lock
photo by: the talented Kylie Nixon

i took a little drive...

this was my first time holding this little doll baby!
my little niece, Audrey Grace.

i got to catch up with these two. "GIRL.......??" talk.

for real, girl talk. we made waffle brownies. very strange. but oh so good when smothered with hershey's chocolate syrup. try it.

most importantly, i got to spend time with this little guy on my quick getaway to utah.
he is the cutest little boy. i love him so much.

Jill came to visit! such a fun weekend spent with her.

we've looked at sunsets from the balcony.

this is quite the typical picture.
nephi does something really really sick and not funny for long enough until it actually is funny.
happy birthday nephi.

we've been to a themed party or two. this was a 'man' party. i didnt really get why that was the theme but it was funny. amanda is in nephi's clothes. and shauna made those mustaches. and that is real booze. yumm. photo taken by: mike c...i think.
we went to the OC fair. we saw lots of animals and watched a HILARIOUS hypnotist.

i made friends! we are all from utah and we all graduated in '06! they are so cute and so fun.

i even tried out for baywatch. thank you kylie, you're such a good photographer. you even captured danielle on my head.

and now i'm freaking out for these next few weeks!
in a bad way. not a good way.