wk 37.

i just have no motivation to blog. 

this is my hand me down sweater. 

it may be my fathers, it may be one of my sisters, who knows. 

i wear it on campus sometimes. it pisses people off.

my life has been crazy. weird how taking only one semester off school makes it so so difficult to get back into the swing of things once you start up again. a couple months into school, i'm FINALLY feeling like i can stay afloat. it's been really hard, but i'm determined to pass all my classes this semester (yes. that's how bad it has been.)

jon is getting home very soon. 

i don't want to exaggerate and say veryvery soon, but compared to the 7 months that he's been gone, these last couple weeks seem like a breeze. 

still no official date of when he is coming home, could be tomorrow, could be three weeks. who knows. but that's why i'm spending SPRING BREAK '11 cleaning my house. just. in. case. 

so if you need me, i'll probably NOT be blogging and WILL be cleaning my bath tub.

wish me luck. 

au revoir.

(yeah, i googled that.)

babies.

i love all things baby. 

well, most things. mainly just baby animals.

i saw a baby bobcat on someone's blog and had to start googling.

i found these pictures and died:

these pictures reminded me of my favorite animal at the zoo; the jaguar.

so i searched for vidoes and found THIS!:

so tiny in his hands!! and such a cute little mew.

and. THEN. a video popped up that they thought i might like. 

they were right. 

i didn't think i liked reptiles but i laughed so hard at that tongue.

i just can't stop there.
in july, we were on the prowl for a kitten.

look at how cute!! i think her name was peach. 

unfortunately, she didn't make the cut.

so then we found bear. the sweetest kitten ever. 

this is me inspecting his dentures that were growing in.

they seriously grew in PERFECTLY. tiny perfect teeth.

jon and i got such a kick out of it. they came in one by one.

bear got adopted illegally by a nice family/pack of wolves so we got a new kitty.

rumbi! she was the runt of her litter.

 she was in a little bitty kennel at the pound with four other kittens. 

it was so sad. 

she smelled like a homeless shelter and was in some serious need for love. 

this is her begging for it from me.

tiny cat.

then we drove her to california. this is our hotel in vegas. 

she was so sick when we got her. she sneezed every ten seconds and her voice...her voice was similar to voldemort's. i am laughing as i type this. we locked her in the bathroom in vegas when we went out on the town and we could hear get scratchy cry from the hotel hallway. hilarious.

i have cute pictures of this cat for days. but i'll spare you.

i'm sure you can't help but love her either though, when she looks that cute sleeping.

ilybebe.

i miss jon tonight.

every now and then i have to watch videos of him, 

just to remind me what he acts like and looks like,
 sometimes i forget.

he is so handsome.

in one short month, i won't have to do that anymore;
he'll be here!

he's the cutest in the end when he says "pretty sweet stuff.."

enjoy.

wk 36.

my life has been crazy. it seems as though every other weekend i have visitors.

am i complaining? not. at. all.

in mid february, i had a girlfriend from kansas city come visit me. 

our men went to boot camp together. we met on one of those really lame but totally worth it websites where you meet girls from the same unit as your marine. 

so we talked on facebook/via text the whole summer of 2009 while our guys were suffering at boot camp. we met at their graduation in august 2009. that is the first and last time i'd seen her.

we've kept in touch really well and her boyfriend deployed a few months after jon. 

so, what are two lonely girls to do? spend time with EACH OTHER over valentine's day!

she is so cute, i love her dearly. 

she literally intoxicates me. 

i could go on and on about her. she is one of my rare friends that i can be totally open with and that makes me laugh so. hard. i haven't been that happy for days on end since jon left, haha. 

it was such a fun weekend. we went sight seeing,

(went to the midway with one of my favorite families that just moved away. ugh, another goodbye. it was awful.)

saw JB: NSN and passed out over it, 

went to dick's last resort with THIS GUY,

and even did karaoke. well, she is a professional, but that is the FIRST time i've everrr sung in front of people at a bar.

i was so vulnerable but...we sang justin bieber 'baby'
and the whole crowd (really just two black women) went wild. 

i don't have a video of it, but i DO have a video of jessi singing exactly how you'd expect miranda lambert to! i'll let the video speak for itself. 

best quote i've read for while.

“I never answer when I can help it. 

When people are insulting you, there is nothing so good for them as not to say a word-

 just to look at them and think. 

When you will not fly into a passion, people know you are stronger than they are, 
because you are strong enough to hold in your rage, and they are not, 
and they say stupid things they wish they hadn’t said afterward. 

There’s nothing so strong as rage, except what makes you hold it in- that’s stronger. 

It’s a good thing not to answer your enemies.”

- Sara Crewe, A Little Princess (via itookadeepbreath)

enemy: a person hostile or opposed to another person; 

especially one who actively tries to damage. 

real v day.

i opened jon's gift as soon as i got it, the anticipation was killing me.

so when the actual valentine's day rolled around, i had nothing to do.

in fact, my dinner was in n out in my car, on the way to school, by myself.

what a lonely day.

it ended up alright though, jon called in the morning AND night and i also got cuddle time with my cat that i treat like a human in a creepy way.

how cute is that tongue?

flash back:

in fourth grade, jon and i both had mr. evans as a teacher.
i sat by jon and a few other boys. we were all opening our valentine's.

i got one that said
"will you be my valentine?"

i wasn't sure how to act around boys, so i read it out loud and said "ew!"
jon was sitting right by me.

a few days later, he wrote me a note that said "that was my valentine."
13 years later, we are married.

wk 35.

i didn't get to spend V day with my husband.

so we celebrated it by sending each other gifts, halfway across the world.

my lover got me such a nice surprise.

ever gotten one of these?

yeah...i haven't.

i passed out when i saw it. then i woke up and opened the box.

and saw this cute. little. pouch!!!!

and this is what it was. 

cute charm necklace with an even cuter card from jon.

i wear it nearly every day.

it comes in a close second as my favorite gift.

my chair happens to be number 1.

i decorated a package for him really, really manly with lots of lace and glitter.

it didn't make his friends very happy to have glitter all over, but i am certain that they thought the decorations were cute and creative, even if they didn't say that. 

i filled it with nauseatingly cute photos of us, funny books, tons of candy, homemade cookies and cake in a jar. he liked it, and ate the cookies in one sitting. 

i need a man here to calm me down when i'm emotionally skyrocketing almost as much as he needs a woman there to stop him from eating like this is first and last meal EVER.

but i promised i wouldn't make fun of his eating habits.

its hard not to be alarmed, though, when his meal is gone before i've even picked up my fork.

...

ha!