weekend.

dads have motherly instincts too.

i slept at my dads house last night and he woke me up at 730 because i had work at 8. when i got up to get ready, his door was shut and i think he was back asleep. so cute. i didnt even ask him to wake me up.

anyway. the weekend! i'm so excited. my life has been really fun lately, finally.

i'll talk about this week later, i dont have very much time. i got paid today! so happy. then i'm going to do another craft (i should put pictures up of my recent crafts! so fun being domestic), then i have a massage tonight. i can not wait. i love having another womans hands all over my naked bod for an hour straight. then i'm going to dinner with my cousin, i always have so much fun gossiping with her (you'll be missed, jill). after dinner, i'm either going to highland to see my sweety gurl!!!!! or going to my roommates parents house in orem. both sound very fun and very tempting, i'll have to see how it plays out.

after i work half day tomorrow, i'm hanging out with amanda and her gf chelsie, and my old roommate from new york is coming into town. she is the funniest/weirdest/craziest girl, i love her so much. girls night tonight and tomorrow, i can not wait.

hahaha. i miss lyndsi so much.
i hope you all have a fun and safe weekend! can't wait to catch up with you all via google reader at work on monday! (haha)


xoxo

so creative.

http://vimeo.com/3237836


please watch this video. i thought it would be a hassle to watch it, since it 10 minutes long. but i loved it so much, i could not stop watching. i was laughing so hard! i seriously think he gets better towards the end.

001. Heart of Glass / Blondie
002. Jimmy / M.I.A.
003. Deceptacon / Le Tigre
004. Im on Fire / 5000 Volts
005. Je Veux Te Voir / YELLE
006. The Way I Are / Timbaland
007. Too Young / Phoenix
008. Over And Over / Hot Chip
009. Stick It To The Pimp / Peaches
010. Say My Name / Destiny's Child
011. Pin / Yeah Yeah Yeahs
012. Geremia / Bonde Do Role
013. Let Me Clear My Throat / DJ Kool
014. Point Of No Return / Expose
015. Bubble Sex / The Seebach Band
016. Pump Up the Jam / Technotronic
017. Let's Make Love And Listen To Death From Above / CSS
018. Hella Nervous / Gravy Train
019. Me Plus One / Annie
020. Don't Go / Yaz
021. Bootylicious / Destiny's Child
022. Electric Feel / MGMT
023. Boys Don't Cry / The Cure
024. Lose Control / Missy Elliott
025. Ride The Lightning / Evans And Eagles
026. Don't Stop 'Til You Get Enough / Michael Jackson
027. Hearts On Fire / Cut Copy
028. Tainted Love / Soft Cell
029. Between Us & Them / Moving Units
030. It Feels Good / Tony Toni Tone
031. Polaris (Club Mix) / Cyber People
032. You Never Can Tell / Chuck Berry
033. Huddle Formation / The Go! Team
034. Pump That / FannyPack
035. My Love / Justin Timberlake
036. Hung Up / Madonna
037. Justice - D.A.N.C.E (MSTRKRFT Remix) / Justice
038. Cybernetic Love / Casco
039. Creep / TLC
040. When I Hear Music / Debbie Deb
041. B.O.B. / Outkast
042. Bubble Pop Electric / Gwen Stefani
043. Miss You Much / Janet Jackson
044. You Spin Me Round / Dead Or Alive
045. Slide In / Goldfrapp
046. Kelly / Van She
047. Mine Fore Life / The Sounds
048. Disco Heat / Calvin Harris
049. Nighttiming / Coconut Records
050. Club Action / Yo Majesty
051. Pogo / Digitalism
052. Lip Gloss / Lil Mama
053. Heartbeats / The Knife
054. Enola Gay / OMD
055. Goodbye Girls / Broadcast
056. Kids In America / Kim Wilde
057. Kiss / Prince
058. Tenderness / General Public
059. Push It / Salt N Pepa
060. Circle, Square, Triangle / Test Icicles
061. Day 'N' Nite (Crookers Remix) / Kid Cudi
062. Shadows / Midnight Juggernauts
063. Paris (Aeroplane Remix) / Friendly Fires
064. Out At The Pictures / Hot Chip
065. Me Myself and I / De La Soul
066. AudioTrack 10 / Diplo
067. Girls & Boys / Blur
068. Heater / Samim
069. I Wanna Dance With Somebody / Whitney Houston
070. Hands In The Air / Girl Talk
071. Limited Edition OJ Slammer / Cadence Weapon
072. Meeting In The Ladys Room / Mary Jane Girls
073. NY Lipps / Soulwax
074. Lex / Ratatat
075. Gravity's Rainbow (Soulwax Remix) / Steve Aoki
076. Once In A Lifetime / Talking Heads
077. Leave It Alone / Operator Please
078. Half Mast / Empire Of The Sun
079. Hardcore Girls / Count and Sinden feat. Rye Rye
080. Dance, Dance, Dance / Lykke Li
081. Never Gonna Get It / En Vogue
082. Blue Monday / New Order
083. Crazy In Love (Featuring Jay-Z) / Beyoncé
084. 10 Dollar / M.I.A.
085. Love To Love You Baby / Donna Summer
086. Steppin' Out / Lo-Fi-Fnk
087. Karle Pyar Karle / Asha Bhosle
088. Love Will Tear Us Apart / Joy Division
089. Straight Up / Paula Abdul
090. My Drive Thru / Santogold, Casablancas, NERD
091. Like A Prayer / Madonna
092. Freedom 90 / George Michael
093. Black & Gold / Sam Sparro
094. B-O-O-T-A-Y / Spank Rock and Benny Blanco
095. Great Dj / The Ting Tings
096. In A Dream / Rockell
097. Don't Stop the Music / Rihanna
098. Hong Kong Garden / Siouxsie & The Banshees
099. It's Tricky / D.M.C.
100. Bizarre Love Triangle / New Order

those are the song titles, i dont know if its on that website.

tell me what you guys think? it makes me want to do a remake of that!

P.S. SAM HE HAS YOUR CALENDER ABOVE HIS BED :)

love/shopaholic

i hope you all have a great valentines day, lauren i'm sorry you dont have a valentine, i would be yours if you were here. i promise i would treat you really well ;)


I SAW CONFESSIONS OF A SHOPAHOLIC.
it was pretty hard to watch.
a few different times in the movie i caught myself shaking my head because the words that came from her lips were like gospel doctrine.
i tried finding exactly what Rebecca said online but i couldnt.

she said something along the lines of:
Buying something makes your world right for awhile. but it doesnt last. Then you have to buy something else to make it right again.

it made me want to cry!! it is TOO true.
i hate being a shopaholic.

yesterday i did my finances and was sooo pleased with the results! so pleased in fact, that when i was thinking about how good it felt to be financially stable, i pictured myself in all new clothes and thought about what i was going to buy next.

very sick!

Dear Jesus,

Thank you.
SERIOUSLY. thank you.

my computer had quite a bit of a melt down on saturday.
I tried putting windows onto my mac and silly me, deleted all of my hard drive.

after two days of it being on the fritz (okay, 1. but it seemed like 5) i took it to the apple store.
they told me my hard drive was deleted, all my pics, music, videos, documents EVERYTHING since last may (pictures since last january, music since jr high...haha.).
They were going to try to do data recovery of some sort. he said it didn't look good, and cross your fingers. he did not lay this news on me nice AT ALL. so the whole way home i just cried and cried and cried thinking mostly of all the pictures from new york i had lost.

so i called them monday and they'd lost my computer (seriously. he came on the phone and said "we can't find your computer."), they eventually found it and said they had someone working on it which means it was shoved in a corner and hadnt even been looked at yet. then i called again and tuesday (they said they'd call me when it was done...they didnt) and picked it up. i was a confused mess when i got it, everything had changed, all my programs i'd downloaded were removed. when i turn the computer on it sounds like a pc (SO ANNOYING). i came home and transferred all my music. it doubled my music so i have to go through and delete 1 of every song, also annoying.
the worst/best part.
they had all my pictures.
PLUS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

EVERY
OTHER
PICTURE
I HAVE EVER!!!!!!
VIEWED ON THE INTERNET!!!!!


EVERYONE from my facebook account had pictures on my computer. i seriously had people ALBUMS saved into my iphoto. everyones display picture, pictures i've viewed on peoples blogs, banners from the side of perez hilton for american apparel and antique attire. there were pictures of people i have never seen, pictures from google maps. you know how you watch a video? well every 1 second it took a picture of every video i've seen. so i had a play by play in pictures of the video. does that make sense? i had to go through and delete pictures of little kittens in dog bowls, pi phi and beta parties (thanks jill, i had like 8 THOUSAND of those), pictures of girls kissing their bf's on the beach, and oh P.S.---it added like 4 or 7 or 2 or 8 copies of the same picture onto my computer. so i have to go through and delete all but one of every picture. IT IS SUCH A MESS!!!!!!!!!!!!
but i am so happy that they got it fixed.

and for that, i'm going to post a few photos that i/we could have/would have forgotten about.

oh and also.

this is my 100th post.
:D :D :D :D

picture I found on my computer. never seen it before but refuse to delete it.

little boy i used to tend. i gave him a tear jerker. if any of you have ever had one of those, i hope your mouth is watering, mine is right now. it was the yellow one too. so funny.

best picture ever. i tried deleting it long long ago but by the Grace of God it appeared on my computer this weekend, i will never delete it again. ps say what you will, i can take your criticism. (pps if it is from you, amanda, i'm sure i can find your picture somewhere)

this is the fountain in the middle of columbus circle. one night it was pouring rain and adam and i saw the fountain....knew we needed to play in it. so we got completely submerged in the water and took pictures and laughed and laughed. P.S. new york city is NEVER EMPTY. a group of tourists came by and were taking pictures of us. too funny.

battery park. this group of us walked/rode our bikes alllll day from washington heights, the very top of manhattan to the very tip. 13 miles. it was so much fun, shopping, eating, seeing everything there is to see, riding our bikes through SKETCHYYYY traffic.

i love this kid. this is us at the bronx zoo. adam and i were the only white folk. :) he's just a little taller than me.

adam and i saw this woman at rockaway beach. i think she was homeless, however. she DID have a karaoke machine and she WAS singing to herself. best thing ever.

bees games. the good old days...

every night of my life when living at my fathers. let the pets in. let them eat then take them upstairs. ps i am not going to the bathroom, merely sitting on top of the closed seat.


my friends are amazing.

i dont ever want to forget this.
view from my apartment in nyc.

another song.

i want to give up.

"Heart of Life"
John Mayer

I hate to see you cry lying there in that position.
There's things you need to hear
So turn off your tears and listen
Pain throws your heart to the ground
Love turns the whole thing around
No it won't all go the way it should
But i know the heart of life is good

You know it's nothing new
Bad news never had good timing
Then the circle of your friends
Will defend the silver lining

Pain throws your heart to the ground
Love turns the whole thing around
Fear is a friend who's misunderstood
But i know the heart of life is good.
I know it's good.



but i will keep on doing my thing.
and hope for a break .

15.

this song makes me so sad.

"15."
You take a deep breath and you walk through the doors, it's the mornin' of your very first day. You say hi to your friends you ain't seen in a while, try to stay out of everybody's way.

It's your freshman year, and you're gonna be here for the next 4 years in this town, hopin one of those Senior boys will wink at you and say "You know, I haven't seen you around...before."

Count to ten. Take it in. This is life before you know who you're gonna be.

Fifteen.

You sit in class next to a red-head named Abigail, and soon enough you're best friends, laughin at the other girls who they think they're so cool.
We'll be out of here as soon as we can.

And then you're on your very first date.
And he's got a car.
And you're feelin like flyin.
And you're thinkin' he's the one, and you're dancin around the room and when the night ends...when the night ends.

But in your life you'll do things greater than datin the boy on the football team, but I didn't know it at fifteen.

When all you wanted
Was to be wanted
Wish you could go back
And tell yourself what you know now

Back then I swore I was gonna marry him someday...
But I realized some bigger dreams in life.
Abigail gave everything she had to a boy who changed his mind.
and we both cried.

Cuz when you're fifteen, and somebody tells you they love you, you're gonna believe them.
And when you're fifteen,
Don't forget to look before you fall.


I've found time can heal most anything
and you just might find who you're supposed to be.
I didn't know who I was supposed to be at fifteen.

big girls don't cry. (religious post)

and neither do i.
usually...

before three days ago, i couldn't remember the last time i cried.
usually it is if my sisters are being mean to me (AMANDA) or my dad is making me feel bad about certain billz or getting in a certain wreck that cost me/us $600 or something dad-like along those lines, or its when I'm alone and I'm driving and I'm listening to a song that gets me every time.
it reminds me of that boy.

or those boys.

the boys i really did like but didn't know i liked at the time and now they've moved on to bigger (not literally) and better (not physically) women.
the boys that all started and ended the same.
said that same things.
from Sarah B's "Love Song"
"I learned the hard way, that they all say things you want to hear."
which actually ends up being all of the same things.
boys are soo typical but that's not the point.

the point is.

that i cry now.

hi maybe my hormones are off balance or i haven't been getting enough chocolate or maybe I've been getting too much thinking time.
but it might just be because I'm lonely

i mean really lonely.
and it may or may not be because everyone, or almost everyone, but i use 'everyone' for better dramatics, has become serious in a relationship.
but me.

father, best friend #1, best friend #2, exhsboyfriend #1, exwehookeduponcebutitwasoneofthebesthookupseverbf#2, exmajorhistorybfthatimthesaddestabout #3, exyouwishwewerebfgfbutididnt #4, and iwishweeveractuallybecamebfgf #5. (the term bf is used very loosely and applies when he's a man that i hung out with for weeks on end, hooked up with maybe only just once, or really actually dated or really actually became bfgf with.)

so here i am bestfriendless boyfriendless fatherless and therefore distraught and lonely.

in church today, we talked about Christ.
the relief society told us the new theme for our RS.

"His love is ENOUGH"

and i wanted to cry.

Doctrine and Covenants 84:88
And whoso receiveth you, there I will be also, for I will go before your face. I will be on your right hand and on your left, and my Spirit shall be in your hearts, and mine angels round about you, to bear you up.

so encouraging.