joyce, thank you.

SECTION 1:
Known as: A.J. to some, Alexandra to others
Born: at Cottonwood hosp

SECTION 2:
HAVE YOU EVER...
Fallen off the bed?: yes when i was really little i fell off a lot. and hit my head on the night stand :(
Broken someone else's heart?: yes
Had your heart broken?: yess
Had a dream come true?: yes

SECTION 3:
CURRENTLY...
Wearing: joes, boots, long sleeve shirt and sweater. oh utah..
Listening to: stuttin is a habiitt
Located: at work!
Chatting with: Adam, Amanda, John, Kalie, Chad. Oh how i love GCHAT.
Should REALLY be: working maybe??????

SECTION 4:
DO YOU...
Have any piercings: none
Drive: nissan altima
Drink: water
Have a cell phone: yes a BB like everyone else ;)

SECTION 5:
LAST PERSON YOU...
Hugged: tigg
Met: addie's husband! crazy
Talked with on the phone: people at work, not interesting
Text: jon hagerman

SECTION 6:
PERSONAL...
What do you want to be when you grow up?: an interior designer, yay.
What comes first in your life?: family
What do you usually think about before you go to bed?: auggie1'09?

SECTION 7:
FAVORITES...
Show: GG you KNOW YOU LOVE ME
Store: i like furniture stores. um apparently i dont shop because i can't think of my fave. yay for saving money
Food: pizza? soup and CHOCO
Color: it used to be silver but i dont know if that stands. probably....brown wah wahh

SECTION 8:
DO YOU...
Like to give hugs: love it
Like to walk in the rain: yes if its warm
Prefer black or blue: black
Sleep on your side: right side of my twin bed....
Have stuffed animals: um ask my dad, we have 8000. but i sleep with only one, that he made with me at build a bear.....3 years ago. haha.

SECTION 9:
THIS OR THAT...
(pick)Pierced nose or tongue: nose. those are cute.
MTV or BET: mtv i refuse to watch BET, so wrong.
7th Heaven or Dawsons Creek: dawsons for totals
Chocolate or flowers: both of course ;)
Color or black-and-white photos: it depends. black and white makes you look better, but its cool to see all the colors
Stay up late or sleep in: both.
Hot or cold: hottt
Sun or moon: sun
Left or Right: all of the above. i dont know :/
10 Acquaintances or one best friend: 10 Acquaintances. its more fun. but i wouldnt give lyndsi up if i really had to choose.
Spring or Fall: spring!
Happy or sad: why would i choose sad? i want to be happy.
Wonder or amazement: amazement!

SECTION 10:
YOUR FIRSTS...
First Screen Name: AJR888 thanx lizz
First self purchased CD: i dont remember.
First piercing/tattoo: ear.

SECTION 11:
YOUR LASTS...
Last GOOD cry: the day before yesterday
Last phone call: voicemail
Last time showered: ummm yesterday....morning.

SECTION 12:
CURRENT...
Current mood: chill
Current food: reisens
Current hair: layered, natural color. growing out!
Current annoyance(s): men. what's my weakness? MEN.

SECTION 13:
WHO LAST...
Made you smile: brandon at work. he tried to scare me but i was just sitting there watching him sneak and so he started blushing and said he didnt really try to scare me....
Saw you cry?: i dont remember? really cry? i dont even remember. if it wasnt my sisters it was probably a year ago. or more

SECTION 14:
WOULD YOU RATHER...
Be serious or be funny?: funny for sure
Drink whole or skim milk? skim
Spend time with your parents or enemies?: um enemies. i love them, thats why they're my enemies.

SECTION 15:
DO YOU PREFER...
Do you prefer red or black?: black
Lust or love?: lust UH
Sunrise or sunset?: sunset
M&M's or skittles?: M&Ms

SECTION 16:
ANSWER TRUTHFULLY...
Do you like anyone?: yeah.
Do you believe in love at first sight?: not really, but you can be interested in them. if you guys both give/receive THAT look.
Do you fall for the wrong guy or girl?: no. i dont fall for the right guy/s. that i should.
the endddddddddd

jumble.

Me: I used to live out there?
Man Living on 2200 Madison Ave NewYork, NewYork: Where!!?
Me: Central Park West and 84th...
Man: Where are you talking to me from?
Me: Salt Lake City Utah!
Man: Why did you move out there? Did you get rich?
Me: ....No...I'm from here. I was going to school in New York.
Man: Oh. Are you coming back?
Me: I hope so.
Man: This is where the money is.
Me: haha...
Man: Alright come on back now. Bye.

He was so sweet. It's so weird to be home, I miss New York so much and no one understands. It's like when a missionary comes home and want to talk about his mission 24/7 and no one cares and no one wants to hear about it. I now kind of know what it is like being on the other end. However, one of my friends just got back from his mission in New York! Soooo that works out really nicely. We can reminisce with each other.

This is a difficult blog to write because I have so many different things on my mind. I could have taken in it so many different directions.

I'll just jump to the new addition to my family.

So I've had a few pets in the past..........thousands of fish, multiple hamsters, and a kitten. All of which I really, REALLY tried to treat well and keep alive.

But they didn't stay on this earth long.
I found them floating in the bowl, frozen solid in their cage, or, the most painful of them all, was awoken by two of my sisters one morning. When they found sweet (???????????????????) Keeska, laying very stiff, but very peaceful, on the top step in the garage.

How I loved her.

I'm hoping that won't happen with my newest, best smelling, fullest, and best dressed...

Christmas tree!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

My dad helped me decorate this beautiful thing after Lizzie and her roommates and I picked it out! So far it hasn't drank any water, but I'm sure it will soon...............

that's the way i loved you....

He is sensible and so incredible.
And all my single friends are jealous.
He says everything I need to hear and it’s like I couldn’t ask for anything better.
He opens up my door and I get into his car, and he says "You look beautiful tonight."
And I feel perfectly fine.
He respects my space and never makes me wait.
And he calls exactly when he says he will.
He’s close to my mother, talks business with my father.
He’s charming and endearing and I’m comfortable.
He can’t see the smile I’m faking, and my heart’s not breaking.
CUZ I'M NOT FEELING ANYTHING AT ALL.


BUT I miss screaming and fighting and kissing in the rain. It’s 2 AM and I’m cursing your name. I’m so in love that I acted insane. And that’s the way I loved you. Breakin down and coming undone, it’s a roller-coaster kinda rush.
And I never knew I could feel that much and that’s the way I loved you....

wisdom teeth.

i got my wisdom teeth out yesterday. right now is a good time to type because i took loritab 3 hours and 15 minutes ago and am about to take them in 15 minutes. they really affect me. even after taking them so long ago i'm a bit tips.

so lyndsi's mother took me to the doctor yesterday and of course i don't remember a thing. the doctor was worried about me because i guess i was trippin from the drug he gave me to fall asleep. he said it was really light weight or some shi. he told me to never do real drugs but i'm sure he tells that to everyone to they all get too scared to do drugs. he didnt scare me out of it though. so i'll put a couple pictures on here of the past days. i just redosed and am already feeling it.
okay here are pictures.
day 1- richard took this and its really hard to smile thats why i look like such a beeyatch in these.

day 2

i miss you oscar.

my good friend oscar left on a mission a couple weeks ago. he was one of my best friends in new york city, and is an amazing rap artist/singer/song writer. he wrote this for me.

this is not a love song
but a friend song
to a beauty in my eye
yeah her soul give me life
every time's a delight
when i spend time with her
she rises up my temperature
cute and she knows it
but i wont let her go with the impression that i love her
as a lover
but i love her as a friend
but lets not pretend
any guy in my shoes would make all types of moves
but i just play it cool cuz i dont wanna lose
what we have right here is way more valuable
there's not many things betta than having a laugh with you
you're like the sister i never had
we've walked similar paths
we both lost our moms
and we grew up with just dads
and we came out pretty good
we both look pretty good
we both act pretty hood
at times misunderstood
i'm not too worried about it
you're such a sass
you're so sweet but fiesty
you're so street but classy
you are a guys dream
i'm so lucky to know ya
i may need some visine
as my eyes fill with water
as we go our separate ways
i hope you never forget me
and know that i think the world of you.

i recorded two videos of him singing the same rap. they are both the same video but in the first one he starts laughing at the end. i couldn't just watch the second one though because he's way too serious.



p.s. we tried to get him to do one that wasn't religious but he refused. he was set apart as a missionary when we taped these so he said he felt weird doing any others, haha.

his friends tried to get me to hug him, but oscar wouldnt have it.

school project.

I had to ask 5 people what they would want to be renown for and why. I asked my dad via text and he said.

Dad - "World Peace. Lol."
Me - "Why?"
Dad - "That's what all the Miss America contestants say."


thanks.

"welcome back to new york, sweetheart."

its crazy being back. its not like a vacation, its so normal.
i'm really happy to be back. i've had a lot of alone time, wandering around the city, loving the humidity and the shopping and the people, all the crazy people.
i havent taken many pictures, but i will try to. and post them on here.

today i was taking the staten island ferry and there was a seagull flying next to the ferry the whole way from staten to manhattan which it like a 20 minute ride. and people were throwing nuts and m&ms off the side of the boat and the seagull was doing all these crazy dives and everything catching the food in the air before it hit the water.....it was the weirdest thing ever. why dont seagulls in utah do such things? if they did, they MIGHT be more respected.