for you kelly.

1. What is your occupation right now? Receptionist at some random. Aka, Pam Beesly. ( Thank you Kelly! i do the same thing )

2. What color are your socks right now? not wearing socks...

3. What are you listening to right now? rihanna take a bow. best song ev.

5. Can you drive a stick shift? thats a tough question. i had a friend teach me how to do it in may, and i did really well. i was driving around all by myself and stalled it like twice so yeah i thought i did. then lyndsi and i made this kid leave us his car and promised we knew how to drive stick (but under the impression that we both knew how to drive it) well turns out neither of us did, ODD. so after an hour of stalling this kids car who we met hours ago, we finally called our friend in st george to come save us. we were laughing so hard we were crying and i was an anxious mess, so shakey and weak.

6. Last person you spoke to on the phone? my grandma last night. and at work today.

7. Do you like the person who sent this to you? kelly. yes.

8. How old are you today? 20 years of age.

9. What is your favorite sport to watch on TV? i am lucky that no boys read my blog (except my cousins. i love you guys.) because i'm coming out right now. i HATE watching sports on tv. so much. as soon as i get to a friends house and espn is on, i am immediately turned off. and bored.

10. What is your favorite drink? i drink warm water 24.7, milk with pizza, and italian sodas if i ever go out. if you get a chance, get a raspberry vanilla italian soda. so good to me...so good to me.

11. Have you ever dyed your hair? yes i have. i used to do it in high school with those home kits with my friends. pretty funny. but i havent now for a couple years.

12. Favorite food? i like pizza, and i love chocolate raspberry balance bars. and i love my grans home cooking.

13. What is the last movie you watched? "watched" or WATCHED? i went to the house bunny the other night and i loved it, it is so cute. so lame but so funny. and last night ....watched walk the line. i love that movie and still dont know how it ends, though i've started it like three times. i always fall asleep..........

14. Favorite day of the year? different. last year my favorite day(s) were the few days before chase left, oddly enough. this year my favorite day was in feb when i surprised my family and came to visit. everyone was so happy to see me, which i totally didn't expect. i loved it.

15. How do you vent anger? drive and cry. one of my favorite books is Dreamland and the main charactors best friend cries and drives. i dont mean to, but i seem to always be in the car when i'm upset. and i listen to things like "saddest girl story", and "face down". then by the time i get out of the car i'm fine, AND no one knows i was ever upset. winwin.

16. What was your favorite toy as a child? barbies, american dolls, girl stuff girl stuff, maple town "dolls" and houses.....

17. What is your favorite season? spring summer and fall....odd.

18. Cherries or Blueberries? neither. is that wrong?

19. Do you want your friends to e-mail you back? when i email them? um. yes.

20. Who is the most likely to respond? to this posting? probably katie.

21. Who is least likely to respond? probably amanda because she doesn't like these things.

22. Living arrangements? just me and my father. for a few more weeks. then i have no idea what i'll do.

23. When was the last time you cried? probably yesterday.

24. What is on the floor of your closet? shoes, boxes of boy stuff ha ha! stuff i have no place for.

26. What did you do last night? went on a date wtih chad. worked until 6, went to dinner at the old spaghetti factory, played tennis and watched walk the line.

27. What are you most afraid of? heights.

28. Plain, cheese, or spicy hamburgers? cheese when i ate them. still havent eaten a veggie burger.

29. Favorite dog breed? i do not like dogs. but if someone forced me to choose it'd be a black lab or something.

30. Favorite day of the week? every day of the week has something positive about it. and negative ;)

31. How many states have you lived in? 2

32. Diamonds or pearls? pearls because i dont have my ears pierced so that narrows it down to a bracelet or a necklace. diamonds on my fingers.......

33. What is your favorite flower? i'm not much of a flower person.

34. How did you meet the person who sent this to you? schoooool.

seriously, SO blessed!

amanda showed me this girls blog.

http://seriouslysoblessed.blogspot.com/

she is the typical married mormon who waited faithfully for her missionary, married him in the temple, loves teaching 2nd grade, loves scrapbooking doing arts and crafts, and LOVES her husband.

she is so dead on it makes me sick. but not sick enough to not read it.


"Worst! Morning! Ever! BUT whenever I'm sad, I'm actually happy because I know that by having drama, I am getting cooler, so it's like a sick win-win I don't really get, but i DO really love."

just one reason why i love her.

take a gander, you will not be disappointed. especially if you often read mormon newly-weds blogs.

good newz.

i thought i'd lost my life-long lucky streak, but i definitely haven't.

in the words of my good friend kanye west "to whom much is given much is tested." this has proved very true this past week. i really am blessed with so many things, i am a blessed and lucky woman and in turn i have to undergo some rare times of disappointment and frustration.

lizzie and i talked about some of our secret talents. some of them were practiced at a recent party on monday. i have a plenty, but would prefer to keep them secret, and i also am lucky in so many different ways but i fear that if i say or write them down, they will escape between my fingers.

anyway the whole point of this post is that i'm back to my old self, thanks to kanye.

"But only I could come up with some shhhh like this, I done played the underdog my whole career. I've been a very good sport, haven't I, this year? They said "he's going crazy and we seen this before"...but I'm doing pretty good as far as geniuses go.
You should go here and bow so hard till your knees hit your forehead.
I'm high up on the line, you can get behind me, but my head's so big you can't sit behind me."

he is the one we all hate to love because he is so cocky but it is so hot and such a good thing to listen to when you are feeling low. katie you've gotta admit that confidence is key, even if its coming from him.

do me a favor.

and write a blog about how you think it is dumb/weird/annoying/pointless that i'm vegetarian. you should make sure its really long with a lot of pictures. get everything out that you would want to tell me. include insults/jabs/jokes/sassiness. after you write it and post it, tell me about it and i'll pretend to read it. then do me another favor and never say any of those things to me again. it would be greatly appreciated and it would improve our friendship. you're the greatest.
love aj.

8/25/2008 6:46p 4:45

what do you guys think the best way to deal with having a missionary leave is?
because when chase left, he told me he didn't want to hold me back and he wanted me to date and everything. i didn't want to be THAT GIRL that doesn't date anyone while her missionary is gone. i decided i'd do kind of what my sister did. if i'm dating someone when he gets back, i promised myself i'd still give him a chance and see if what we had-we still would have. and so here i am dating all these people, i want to know that i really love him and that i can't find anyone else. it is really scary because i dont want to find anyone else, although i am looking...(all of this is if chase even wants to date me when he gets home.)
so do you think its best to break up before they leave and not write?
have pretty much an open relationship and have the girl dating, but still writing.
or having the girl wait faithfully til he gets home, not having gone on one date?


what i am sure about is, i'm going to do anything i can to not let my daughter send off a missionary.

here are some lyrics from of my favorite songs.

I don't want you thinking I'm unhappy
What is closer to the truth
Is if I lived 'til I was one-hundred and two
I just don't think I'll ever get over you

Your face it dances and it haunts me
Your laughter's still ringing in my ears
I still find pieces of your presence here
Even, even after all these years

I don't want you thinking I don't get asked to dinner
'Cause I'm here to say that I sometimes do
And even though I may soon feel a touch of love
I just don't think I'll ever get over you

rob and big.

Rob: My mother thinks I'm 13 years old. So when I get around her, I act 13. She thinks I'm just a baby.
Big: You left home when you were a baby. Thats why she still....
Rob: Yeah.
Big: Yeah.
Rob: So it's like...I can't help when I get around but to torture her. And its not like in a bad way. Its almost like she forces me to, ya know?


why do i know exactly what he means?

when a turtle becomes a son.

normal day.
i walk in the house and much to my surprise, i see a package on the counter from a certain someone! i totally did not expect it, and was so happy. it was about an 8 inch by 8 inch box. sent straight from the ghettos of Louisiana. so i quickly open the package, maybe toss it around a bit trying to find the top and struggling with the tape. i see something covered in towels and am immediately weary. chase has a sick sense of humor and has been known to send me such things as, his companions entire ripped off toe nail, a real alligators head, etc...
so i felt through the towels and could feel a hard shell and knew it was a turtle. i assumed it was dead and when i thought about what it'd be, i wanted to barf. i cant even imagine what a turtle shell with no turtle in it would look like, and i really don't want to.
i looked through the rest of the box, found a cute beanie, some beads sent from New Orleans (missionaries love Mardi gras), a tape, a few pictures and a note.
something along the lines of "hey... i hope he isn't dead. if you don't want him, you can give him to my sister... :S" anyone who knows chase knows that he didn't really say it that clearly, but that's what he meant.
i, obviously, was turned off and just stared at the bundle of towels sitting on the counter. i slowly started to unfold the towels. finally i was on the last towel and hurried and pulled it away. i sat there face to face with the most worried looking turtle ever. and we stared at each other for probably five minutes.

i grabbed my phone and sent out a mass text telling my family that chase had sent me a live turtle in the mail. i looked on the box and it said 8-3-08. today's date was 8-5-08, so he'd been without water for at least two days.

when we were on good terms.

my dad told me there was a fish tank down stairs so i fetched it and brought it upstairs. of course i wasn't going to touch the turtle, so i got a paper towel and started to reach for it. he tried to run but couldn't get a grip on our slippery counter, but it still scared me and i jumped back. i tried talking to him and telling him it was okay, i was just going to pick him up, and reached for him again. a mix of being tossed around in a tiny box for two days, hurt ears from the airplane, and fear of a large white object coming towards him made him contemplate life and he started running so fast that he got a grip of the counter and leapt from my grasp and the counter and landed with a thud on the hard wood floor on his shell. all of this happening to the soundtrack of my screams. i sat there screaming for probably ten seconds as he laid there quiet, not moving. my heart was pounding so fast and i was at such confusion and regret that i grabbed my phone and immediately called my grandma. i said "gran. chase sent me a turtle in the mail, and it just leapt from the counter and isn't moving. will you please come pick it up? i can't touch it." and she said "yes, bye" and was there in no longer then five minutes.

when she walked in, i was standing there staring at my lifeless, unmoving turtle. she walked towards him and flipped him off of his back with her foot and he stuck his legs out. he lives!!! and she hurried and grabbed him with the paper towel and dropped him (yes, dropped him) into the fish tank that was currently empty. he ran around and kept bumping into all the see through walls, bless his heart. so i text chacha and asked him what turtles eat, they responded "greens. fruits and vegetables, but you should probably get him real turtle food." i searched all over the house and only found parsley, and hot peppers....so i gave him some parsley and a bowl of water. right when i put the bowl of water in, he submerged himself in it, which i thought was odd.
i let him hang out in his cage until my dad got home and said i needed to put leaves and grass in there for him and needed to go talk to petsmart about how to care for him. i was leaving for the night, so i just hurried and got some grass and a few leaves to put in there, then i went out. i came home around 1 and checked on "Oscar". my dad had gotten WAY more leaves and grass than i had, and Oscar the turtle had burrowed into them so that i couldn't see him. I'd find out why, later.
the next day i had work until 2, then i went straight to petsmart. i told them i received a foreigner in the mail and had no idea what to do. they asked if i had a picture of him, and of course i did.
250 dollars later, and with new knowledge that Oscar was a water turtle, i sped home hoping that i wouldn't have to uncover his corpse. much to my surprise, he was still hanging onto life. i hurried and put my new tank together and my dad helped me fill it with water. he pulled Oscar from his tiny waterless fish tank and dropped him into a huge tank filled with luscious water and Oscar just sat there soaking it all up, so pleased.
a few days later, after Oscar and i became acquainted and got on good terms, i sent his father a tape. told him he owed me child support, but that our baby was happy. i even saw him eating yesterday for the first time. i don't know what I'd do if i would have lost him when he was at his lowest point in life. literally and figuratively.

in honor of. :)